Someone I know posted on Tumblr yesterday about friendship. I felt very guilty when I read it; I am that person who withdraws and until I read Elysium’s post I had never really stopped to think about how my behaviour affects my friends. I felt pretty ashamed of myself and e-mailed her to point out that it might not be her, but the other person that’s at fault.
As I wrote, explaining why I withdraw, I realised I was telling the wrong person, so I e-mailed my very dear friend, Lee, and tried to explain to her why I am such a shitty friend and apologised. I knew I would get a gracious reply, even if it was a politely-framed ‘piss off’ (she is a Southern belle, after all), and it would have been no less than I deserved. Instead, I woke up to find the most wonderful response from her.
Lee is the best kind of friend. One who sees me exactly as I am, warts and all, and loves me anyway. So, a resolution: it’s time to pull up my big-girl panties and start trying to be the friend that my friends deserve.